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[sanura]

I have always been kind of idealistic in that I'd like to accomplish things by my own merit, write my own words, hoist my own petard. It's why I feel so guilty for having things I didn't earn. But the truth is, I am priveleged, and I have been my entire life. My immediate family is musical, I've had numerous opportunities I haven't had to fight for. On the whole, actually, I've been pretty apathetic in my path through life. It occurred to me that I am nearly doing what my mother did before me. Not that that's why I am doing it; it's just that it happens to be easier than... majoring in writing, for instance. I've had more opportunities in this direction, and I've come a long way because of it. I'm going down the easy path.

Did I get to where I am because I went to a special school? That's a terrifying thought. I know I don't work as hard as I could, but I'd like to think that I have at least some personal merit to accomplish what I have. I don't know. Many others would do better with what I have. Stephan, for example. He is extremely motivated.

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[(Anonymous)]

You're one of the coolest people I know. People go about things in different ways. Do what you think you want to do, and don't worry about it being "better" or "worse" than something someone else is doing.
Good luck. I'll see you someday. ~Nia