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Shepherd is an infinite treasure chest. Lemme know if you want me to email you anything.
Shepherd is an infinite treasure chest. Lemme know if you want me to email you anything.
I have always been kind of idealistic in that I'd like to accomplish things by my own merit, write my own words, hoist my own petard. It's why I feel so guilty for having things I didn't earn. But the truth is, I am priveleged, and I have been my entire life. My immediate family is musical, I've had numerous opportunities I haven't had to fight for. On the whole, actually, I've been pretty apathetic in my path through life. It occurred to me that I am nearly doing what my mother did before me. Not that that's why I am doing it; it's just that it happens to be easier than... majoring in writing, for instance. I've had more opportunities in this direction, and I've come a long way because of it. I'm going down the easy path.
Did I get to where I am because I went to a special school? That's a terrifying thought. I know I don't work as hard as I could, but I'd like to think that I have at least some personal merit to accomplish what I have. I don't know. Many others would do better with what I have. Stephan, for example. He is extremely motivated.
Did I get to where I am because I went to a special school? That's a terrifying thought. I know I don't work as hard as I could, but I'd like to think that I have at least some personal merit to accomplish what I have. I don't know. Many others would do better with what I have. Stephan, for example. He is extremely motivated.
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