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Rion Soulkeeper: This is what makes life so sad
Rion Soulkeeper: "I know what it is to live entirely for and with what I love best on earth. I hold myself supremely blest--blest beyond what language can express; because I am my husband's life as fully is he is mine. No woman was ever nearer to her mate than I am: ever more absolutely bone of his bone and flesh of his flesh. I know no weariness of his society: he knows none of mine, any more than we each do of the pulsation of the heart that beats in our separate bosoms; consequently, we are ever together. To be together is for us to be at once as free as in solitude, as gay as in company. We talk, I believe, all day long: to talk to each other is but a more animated and an audible thinking. All my confidence is bestowed on him, all his confidence is devoted to me; we are precisely suited in character--perfect concord is the result."
Rion Soulkeeper: that is impossible
Rion Soulkeeper: And it makes me cry to think I'll never have that
seymour507glass: im some what confused. why won't you ever have that
Rion Soulkeeper: Cause it's impossible
seymour507glass: i don't think it's impossible...
Rion Soulkeeper: life just does not work that way
seymour507glass: mm. life works how you want it to ryan
Rion Soulkeeper: ...
seymour507glass: it seems to me, that humanity as a hole, is forgeting that they are some what advanced technologicaly-that they are more "civilized" then prehumans, or what ever... so they carry on doing things that are stupid, that they could avoid
seymour507glass: where did you get that any way
Rion Soulkeeper: Jane Eyre. I'm writing an essay
seymour507glass: why do you feel like that is impossible
Rion Soulkeeper: Because it couldn't ever happen. Even if there was someone who suited me perfectly, which is a statistical impossibility, it'd be even more statistically impossible that I suited him that well, and even if he did, there are more than 6 billion people in the world and I probably won't meet more than 10,000 in my life
seymour507glass: well, i cant discribe what im thinking. its somthing to do with
Rion Soulkeeper: I consider myself fairly gullible and fairly naively hopeful, but that makes it worse, cause I can't deny the possibility of true love, but if I hope for it myself, then my life would be a void just waiting for it all the time
seymour507glass: be5etsimhovphoenny being imposable, and you being imposable, but that sounds (to put it in project andrew terms) corny... but you dont wait for it. thats the problem with my dad
seymour507glass: hes always waiting somthing, but in the prosses , he misses somthing far greater
Rion Soulkeeper: I know. That's why I'm just going to decide it's impossible and live anyway
seymour507glass: well
Rion Soulkeeper: it's just really sad that it is
seymour507glass: it isn't, jeebus
seymour507glass: i try not to wait for anything... but also alow the posability. i mean what if i wanted terribly to become a profesional composer but i just automaticly said i couldn't do it and then it would be worse then waiting for somthing
seymour507glass: it would be... mm... we need to make a word for that
Rion Soulkeeper: I think I will function better if I just break down over its eternal and irrevocable absence occasionally and have this kind apathetic hole in my psyche about it the rest of the time, instead of waiting
seymour507glass: m, don't make me beleave you... i beleave every thing you say, so stop
Rion Soulkeeper: I think my problem (or solution) is that I have faith in a lot of things, but faith is stupid
Rion Soulkeeper: so I'm trying to get rid of it
Rion Soulkeeper: I can't have faith in love, because it might not exist, so it doesn't
seymour507glass: oh god
seymour507glass: faith IS stupid, but this isn't really faith... its... god... i guess it is... well
seymour507glass: blind faith isn't... but doesnt your mind tell you that it does exist? mine does. it feels right... i guess
Rion Soulkeeper: yes, but it doesn't
seymour507glass: thats pritty blind... jeebus, you complicated me
Rion Soulkeeper: And then there's the other argument I keep in my head
Rion Soulkeeper: Anything is possible, and you can't EVER deny that
Rion Soulkeeper: I CAN learn to teleport
seymour507glass: well there you hvae it. that was my mentality before highschool
Rion Soulkeeper: But I can't rely on other people for being possible
seymour507glass: but there are so many things i tried so hard at....... haha
seymour507glass: not when the other people..... are literally others. the whole deal is that theyre you and youre them... doesnt that help?
Rion Soulkeeper: maybe
Rion Soulkeeper: but if you are, then why weren't you together from the beginning?
seymour507glass: becouse god doesnt exist
Rion Soulkeeper: What kind of cruel mechanics of the world puts one person in two people?
seymour507glass: if he did he might help out there
seymour507glass: or if a god does exist or maybe if all this fate crap some how exists in a warped kind of way from the human mentailty or somthing then that is some kind of life journy..... finding your self, or GOD
Rion Soulkeeper: yeah, that's Douglas Adams's hypothesis
seymour507glass: idono, im the false prophet not god remember?
Rion Soulkeeper: He's a vehement atheist, but if people believe so strongly in something it might as well exist
seymour507glass: be as happy as you can be.......... dont wait, dont rule anything out
seymour507glass: just AH
Rion Soulkeeper: we made god, not the other way around
seymour507glass: YES. yeah
Rion Soulkeeper: But you can't do that with love
seymour507glass: i wrote that once, but its obvias enough thing for it to be said by lots of people
seymour507glass: why not?
Rion Soulkeeper: because it involves another person and he will have his own mentality inventing things and his own doubts
seymour507glass: well i guess i don't know what love is
Rion Soulkeeper: Agh
Rion Soulkeeper: I think I do, but how can you ever tell?
seymour507glass: i thought i loved you
seymour507glass: i dont know. i really have no idea
Rion Soulkeeper: There's the faith thing. It's in my sig quote on Flat Lake... Anne McCaffrey said it well
Rion Soulkeeper: "When is a legend a legend? When is a myth a myth? How old and disused must a fact be for it to be relegated to the category 'fairy tale'?"
seymour507glass: yeah yeah. isnt somthing in my mind as real, or more real then somthing out here
Rion Soulkeeper: Yes. That, I believe
seymour507glass: as do i
Rion Soulkeeper: That is why I can accept having a cat for a soul
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