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Oddly enough, the only freshman musicologist in the Shepherd School went to high school with the girl who was my best friend when I lived in Santa Monica. We spent the ten minutes in the rehearsal hall before Chorale having a conversation... just like you'd see in the movies. And we'd be the ridiculously self-assured, bigger-than-life, cool-person-like-you-wish-you-were people that would play the parts. It's not that the conversation was scripted, though Stephan mentioned that concept when Bryce appeared and I introduced them and he could tell we'd known each other awhile... I don't know how to describe it. I was acting, as furiously as I've ever acted in my life, but it was relevant to my personality. I was Cool, contained (or confidently uncontained, as I got at some points with the expansive gestures and showing off my familiarity with everything I was lucky enough to already know, having been in Chorale for 7 years and known Bryce for 4 and a lot of the Chorale members a long time), and completely behind my own eyes. It was really strange.

Similarly odd, even the piano midi of the swoopy adventure theme from PotC has such an effect on me that I'm inspired to accomplish anything I possibly can. Including homework. It's like a drug. I grin idiotically and attempt to be the best person I could possibly be. I'm sure the movie would have the same effect (the grin is definitely there), but the visuals are somewhat distracting and sometimes lead to the more typical movie reaction, slightly distant but truly sincere admiration and an intense longing to be part of something of such high quality.

I think the only connection between these two odd psychological phenomena is the indication that I've been missing acting. Maybe I should get an agent. Haha, and drop out of college.