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Ellis caught me in the hall on the way out of first period.
"Where the crap have you been??"
"Mexico City."
"...Oh."
"Where the crap have you been??"
"Mexico City."
"...Oh."
Life advice. Wow. Parking lot conversations outside Stag's Head... explanations of position...
I really wanted to continue the night at Bill's house, so he went and asked Bill if he was serious about having people over. Came back and told us we had to call it a night. I was quite unhappy. Now it'll be a week in between, I said. 'Sokay, he said. No, it's not, I said, and threw a minipout.
He told me not to get to attached to certain people. (Mentally: well, it's a little late for that...) Any reason? Yes. About 16. No, not that kind of reason... Because he doesn't want to contaminate my outcome; it's like quantum physics, you can't know the direction and velocity if you know the position... The reason he liked me was because I reminded him a lot of himself at that age, curious. But. I shouldn't make choices just because I think they're what he would choose; I shouldn't try to be him. I'm not. A mentor is different than... someting else, and when you're young you may not be able to tell the difference. Anything outside that makes him uncomfortable and should make me uncomfortable (duh! He's the one who skipped his watch. Well, I can't claim to know anything. But I don't want him to die!). No, no, no. The reason I asked was that he mentioned the possibility of dying. Well, he might. He hasn't got the bloodwork back yet. But he's not going to stop living yet anyway. He's survived a couple possible deaths, and everybody has to go sometime. Well, it would be a big deal to me. He's just like David.
I really wanted to continue the night at Bill's house, so he went and asked Bill if he was serious about having people over. Came back and told us we had to call it a night. I was quite unhappy. Now it'll be a week in between, I said. 'Sokay, he said. No, it's not, I said, and threw a minipout.
He told me not to get to attached to certain people. (Mentally: well, it's a little late for that...) Any reason? Yes. About 16. No, not that kind of reason... Because he doesn't want to contaminate my outcome; it's like quantum physics, you can't know the direction and velocity if you know the position... The reason he liked me was because I reminded him a lot of himself at that age, curious. But. I shouldn't make choices just because I think they're what he would choose; I shouldn't try to be him. I'm not. A mentor is different than... someting else, and when you're young you may not be able to tell the difference. Anything outside that makes him uncomfortable and should make me uncomfortable (duh! He's the one who skipped his watch. Well, I can't claim to know anything. But I don't want him to die!). No, no, no. The reason I asked was that he mentioned the possibility of dying. Well, he might. He hasn't got the bloodwork back yet. But he's not going to stop living yet anyway. He's survived a couple possible deaths, and everybody has to go sometime. Well, it would be a big deal to me. He's just like David.
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