It has been Christmas for awhile, and I don't have to go to work. It seems like more of a change than I think it is. I remember getting back from grad school and, before Dan hired me or I had any regular ensembles, making up things to do to fill the days. I still haven't done those things, and I've been free all day for nearly a week. It feels a bit like a failure, but I have lit a lot of candles.